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January 30th, 2020
04:11 pm
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To Newcomers
This is a friends-only journal. If you're not on my friends list, all you'll see is some ramblings that I put up to get opinions about, or lists of things I wish people would do/not do.

Anything that's public, feel free to comment on. Though it might not make lots of sense all the time.

Want to know who I am? Try this. Another good one to read is this.

If you friend me, more likely than not I'll friend you back. (There's exceptions, and I reserve the right to add or delete friends at my own discretion.)

However, if you friend me, it helps to leave a comment saying you did. I get comment notifications, so I'll be sure to notice - but I don't check my friend-of list very often, so it might be a while before I notice. :)

Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: I Was So Much Older Then - The Byrds

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September 2nd, 2010
06:26 pm
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LJ Facebook/Twitter work around to get rid of the annoying boxes
By way of lovefromgirl. I've attempted to implement this fix myself; let me know if you see any option to crosspost? I'm not sure if it's working or not. :P

Originally posted by beren_writes at LJ Facebook/Twitter work around to get rid of the annoying boxes
stolen from [info]pombagira who pulled it from someone else who pulled it from yet another person :) Yes, this is signal boosting.

Passing this along from my flist.

Thanks to [info]midniterose, here is how to stop the crossposting of comments/entries from LJ to sites like Facebook:

There is a way to disable everything. Here is what you have to do:

1. Go to your "Journal" menu, and select "Journal Style"
2. To the right, you'll see what theme you're using, with a link stating "Customize Your Theme". Click that link.
3. Scroll down a little ways, and you'll see that on the left side of your screen, you have multiple options to modify your theme. Click on the "Custom CSS" link, and it should load the options for doing Custom CSS.
4. From here, all you have to do is go to the "Custom Stylesheet", and put in that line.

.b-repost-item {display:none}

once you have it pasted in there, save changes.

Feel free to PASS THIS ON!!

ETA: This prevents the "repost to FB/Twitter" ticky boxes from being displayed when someone comments on one of your posts. It seems to work, UNLESS the person is viewing your page in their own journal style, in which case it might not work.

ETA2: Inserting the code below in your custom CSS box reportedly works for more kinds of journal styles, including custom ones (this courtesy of xnguard):

.b-repost-item, FORM#qrform > TABLE[style="border: 1px solid black;"]:last-child TD[style="vertical-align: top; text-align: right;"]:first-child { display: none !important; }

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October 3rd, 2008
07:41 pm
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LFGuild (US) for Lich King. Full details follow.

What I"m looking for in a guildCollapse )

About me, as a playerCollapse )

About my charactersCollapse )

Please feel free to contact me with questions, comments, invites, etc. :) Comments on this post are screened, so feel free to be honest here.

*Expressed preferences are only preferences, and do not rule out other possibilities! Please do feel free to talk to me even if you can't meet all of my stated ideals; very little in this world is ever ideal, and your guild may be better than others I'm looking at.

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February 6th, 2008
02:08 am
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I am fighting a war within my own mind.

I am fighting to be normal, or at least stable and balanced - fighting against anger, fear, anxiety, and depression. Most days, I win, or at least stalemate, and I seem to be fairly okay, occasionally even happy. Some days, I lose, and say and do things that frighten and upset me, things that I wish I could take back, but can only apologize for.

I am seeking help, and am taking medications that sometimes have side effects as scary as what they're treating, or are downright counterproductive. It's a biochemical stew that occasionally explodes, between the meds, and hormones, and unbalanced brain chemistry, and all sorts of other factors, possibly even what I ate that day. Even if I've been on a stable dose or combination of meds, things sometimes just blow up for no readily apparent reason.

I need to understand why things happen, in addition to simply what is happening. The nature of my brain makes it impossible for me to understand myself - I don't know what's going on in my head to make me behave this way, let alone why it is that way, which can be extremely distressing in and of itself, even without any other factors. Possibly as a way to compensate, I have a strong need for understanding the logic and reasoning behind things that happen in my life.

I cannot always do things that would seem to be easy. I cannot always take advice, no matter how sound I know it to be - my brain will not let me, sometimes. If I so much as think about some things, I freeze up in terror, or sink into a pit of depression. Some of my triggers are things I know, and some of them seem to change day to day, even minute to minute. It isn't always that I don't want the help - sometimes, it's that I am incapable of accepting it.

Some days... the biochemistry wins. And all I can do is cry.

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March 14th, 2006
03:19 am
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As long as I keep talking and responding, however irrationally, I am not a serious danger to myself, and not likely to be a serious danger to anyone else. When I stop responding, it may mean that I am a danger - or it may mean that at that moment, words saying "I care about you" aren't enough. Passive-aggressive, perhaps. But if I pull away after saying worrying things, and you really do care about me, make an effort. (Even if you read my away message and go "oh, I don't have to worry.")

It is never a bad thing to say you care about me. It is never, ever a bad thing to respond positively when I say something like that to you. ("I know" is better than nothing, but not as good as mirroring my words and the emotion behind them back at me.)

Get me out of myself. Redirect my attention to something that will affect me personally and deeply. Make me cry in sympathy with someone else's pain - it releases a lot of the emotion in an acceptable, non-harmful way, and keeps me from sinking deeper into my own self-destructive cycle. I will be more receptive to your attempts to help if you are unafraid to let me see you vulnerable. (And that is why I distrust professionals.)

Just because I understand what I'm doing doesn't mean I can fix it, or even admit that it needs to be fixed. It's hard enough sometimes to find the words to say what the tiny little bit of myself knows intellectually. It's harder yet to even attempt to act on it, no matter how loudly anyone yells that I should.

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February 12th, 2006
12:43 am
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Special bonus fun thing - Firefly sound scheme for Windows. Zip file containing wavs, which are named as I chose to distribute them. Don't feel compelled to keep it the same, and do feel free to ask if there's any clips listed on my cliplist that you'd like as wavs to use for something similar.

Quick walkthrough for XP - Start, (Settings,) Control Panel, Sounds and Audio Devices. Sounds tab. Click the event you want to assign a sound to, browse to the unzipped folder, pick. Pretty simple. Name the scheme at the end if you like. :) I'm sure it's a similar process for other Windows versions; just get to Control Panel and into the Sounds control.


January 26th, 2006
11:41 am
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Cliplist: Lord of the Rings
Part 2 of this project - Lord of the Rings, extended editions. No commentary or special feature clips this time... the movies themselves are enough footage to watch!

Same guidelines as the Firefly/Serenity clips: feel free to ask for lines I didn't record, shortened-down clips of lines I did, or (obviously) clips as transcribed. Music is included in a fairly large number of clips, though not excessively so. I can upload wav or mp3 formats, I'll likely do mp3 unless specified. Number is all I need, though if you're requesting a line I haven't recorded, I'll need movie, and would appreciate a time or scene estimate as well.

Folder size - 943MB
Clips - 171
Running time - 1:32:02

Movie breaks are indicated, but numbering is consecutive and all clips are in one folder. There's a good chance that I'll mis-label speaking characters for some of these, because I'm transcribing purely from the audio. Mishearing and mistyping are also likely, and my spelling is terrible. :P

Gollum/Smeagol are used more or less interchangeably - if he's arguing with himself, I'm not going to split it up, but I'll try to indicate which aspect is dominant if in a conversation with others.

Onwards to massive text overload!Collapse )

Zip file, mp3s. YouSendIt, uploaded Jan 30, should be good for at least a few days. 105 MB.


January 18th, 2006
05:14 pm
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Cliplist: Firefly and Serenity
Woo. This is a project and a half that I think I'm almost done with - well, this section anyway.

I have gone through Serenity and all 14 episodes of Firefly recording raw .wav sound clips of... well, whatever caught my fancy. Then I went back and cleaned them all up, trimming the ends and adding fades when possible (very short, in and out, just to keep the clips with background from being terribly jarring), then normalizing everything to a consistent volume. The resulting 237 clips is over an hour of yummy goodness, and includes a few clips from commentary and other extras, as well as quite a bit more music than might be expected. (I love the music, and tended to leave some in if it fit well.)

And here... here, I attempt to list everything I have. If you are willing to be patient with me, I will take requests of all of the following types: to upload a clip I have listed (or multiple, I'll probably zip though), to take an existing clip and cut it down (and upload), and to record a clip not listed (and upload). Speed of requests being filled is approximately in that order. When requesting, all I need to know is episode and number. (There's a few clips I split later, and a few that are lettered rather than numbered, so be careful.) For reference, the entirety of the folders is 688 MB - I can compress to .mp3 if requested, which will definitely speed up transfer time on any requested files. However, I don't think mp3s can be set as, for instance, Windows sound files or AIM alert sounds.

For my fingers' sake, names of the 9 main characters are abbreviated to one letter when indicating who is speaking. (Mal, Wash, Zoe, River, Simon, Kaylee, Book, Jayne, and Inara.) Episodes are in the DVD set order, not airing order. My spelling is atrocious, please exuse. Also excuse the lack of formatting - bolding or otherwise setting off the numbers would make my fingers strangle me, I think. Just look carefully, they're all there.

Onward! Spoiler warning if that"s not obvious. Crazylong, too.Collapse )

..I need an icon for this fandom. And new fingers, I think I broke mine.

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August 11th, 2005
09:58 pm
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Playlist of songs that in some way are piratey or shanty-like. All but a few are mp3. Anything marked with artist "Pirates!" is from Pirates of the Caribbean - the first 15 are from the soundtrack, the remaining are sound clips, recorded by me off the DVDs.

-No more than three requests at a time per person, though you can come back for more.
-Please include the numbers in the request - it makes it much easier for me to find the tracks.
-Files will be uploaded individually and linked in the list. If I'm awake, I'll also note the site uploaded to and date uploaded. I'll reply to your comment when your tracks are posted, so the notifications send.
-Some of these tracks have foul and/or suggestive language. Most is relatively mild. If you wish to avoid downloading those tracks, say something and I'll indicate them. (If no one cares, I'm not going to the effort. :P)
-Friend me if you like, but I will not friend you back unless I know you. Journal policy.

Pirate playlist - 176 filesCollapse )

Current Mood: piratical
Current Music: Pirates!
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April 8th, 2005
03:21 am
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Okay. Random stupid question.

There's a song that goes "A Pizza Hut, a Pizza Hut, Kentucky Fried Chicken and a Pizza Hut," that I learned when I was young. If asked, I would've sworn hands-down that either my mom made it up, or knew someone who had - it felt like something from Girl Scout camp, and my mom was a leader, and it made sense. (Full text available if you really want it, I just don't feel like typing it all.)

But I've just been given a recording of it, in expanded form.

So my question:

Have you heard this song before? If so, where/when?

Geographical areas preferred - I'm in a moderate city north of Philly, and I heard it.. I want to say around 96, so about 9-10 years ago. (That level of detail is as specific as I expect.)

Obviously negatives are somewhat less informative than positives, but still somewhat useful.

Help? :)

Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Fast Food Song - Fast Food Rockers

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January 27th, 2005
09:55 am
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Happy birthday to barisaxgirljen! And to my brother, incidentally, who's now 18. Meep.

I'm starting to wonder if everything I'm seeing is just fever dreams - but it's almost too weird for that.

My posters and drawings are talking to me.

Yes, you read that right. All the drawings and posters and stuff on my wall are alive, and talking to me. It's very strange. (And the dragon in my huge wall hanging is laughing at me right now...) I'm not sure if I should be surprised that they're as...how to say this...stupid as they are. I mean, they are two-dimensional...

Hey, I didn't mean it like that! Stop yelling at me!

...Uh, I should go now. Before they destroy my room.

Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Deceiver of Fools - Within Temptation

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January 5th, 2005
03:46 pm
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It is much easier to look at someone else and see what is good than it is to look at yourself and see what is good.

It is much easier to look at their situation and possessions and see what is good than it is to look at your own situation and possessions and see what is good.

It is much easier to look at yourself and see what is bad than it is to look at someone else and see what is bad.

It is much easier to look at your situation and possessions and see what is bad than it is to look at their situation and possessions and see what is bad.

And that is the basis of jealousy.

Current Mood: hopefulphilosophical
Current Music: Opeth - A Fair Judgement

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January 4th, 2005
02:25 am
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From skywickedpixie by way of wiseheron in glamourbombs:Rabbit hole!Collapse )

Pass it on, and try to remember. (Personal recommendation: make them public posts, even if you normally post friends-only. It's more surreal that way.)

Current Mood: mischievousmischievous
Current Music: Starry Configurations - Jets to Brazil

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December 19th, 2004
08:37 am
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Relationships are like taming wild horses.

You start out wary, circling each other. You're not quite sure what he's capable of, or what he'll do - but you know that he's magnificent and wonderful. He's cautious but curious, and that curiousity keeps him from bolting.

You sit down and pretend to ignore him, staring off into the distance somewhere. He paces closer, then backs off cautiously. When you don't make any threatening moves, he comes a little closer before sidling away again.

Now you take out an apple, or a carrot, and put a piece on the ground, then stand and walk away. He approaches and sniffs it, then eats it. You put down another piece and back up again, but not so far. Slowly he is lured closer, until he'll take a piece from your outstretched hand.

Soon you can approach him without food in your hand. He'll even let you touch him.

And now is when you have to back off and let go. You have to let him choose to come to you before you can even start breaking him to tack, or a rider. You sit down and wait, and let him decide how he feels. He might leave - that's his choice. But if he chooses to stay, he'll be yours. If you push too hard, and bring out tack before he trusts you, he'll bolt.

You have to let him go, completely and without reservation. You have to have faith in his judgement, and believe in the careful relationship you've established. If you can't trust him unless he's under your eye, he'll never be a true partner.

After all, he has to trust you too.

Staying up all night + Bejeweled 2 + a situation on my mind = philosophy.

Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: Two Points for Honesty - Guster

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December 17th, 2004
10:42 pm
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Statement of policy
This is probably long overdue, but...

This is my personal journal. I write about things that I find interesting, that I think others will find interesting. It's a way for me to keep in touch with my friends, and my personal rant space.

Things contained within are my own opinions and thoughts (unless otherwise noted, or linked). I don't expect you to like or agree with everything here, but I do expect you to respect that they are my thoughts. Attack my arguments, don't attack me.

I use LJ-cuts and filters fairly extensively, as a courtesy. I don't like seeing things I have little or no interest in on my friends list, and I suspect most people feel the same. So I try to cut down on the amount of spam. I will cut things or adjust filters by request, but you have to ask. I don't expect everyone to use cuts/filters as much as I do, but I do appreciate the effort.

My contact information in my user info is typically up to date and accurate. The bio may not be, but the contact info should be. If you have a problem, you are more than welcome to bring it up with me privately.

I will screen/delete comments that I feel are inappropriate. This may vary day to day. I don't do so very often, however, and will usually screen them first. If you find anything you say screened, it's a safe guess that I'd prefer you either to bring it up privately or not to bring it up at all.

I'm easy to get along with. Just treat me with the same respect and courtesy you expect to be treated with, and everything will be fine.

Current Mood: angrystern
Current Music: All Is Full of Love - Death Cab for Cutie


December 16th, 2004
04:50 am
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I've always considered myself a nerd. *points at icon* See? Homemade chainmail. Nerdy.

And I'm pretty sure that most of you are nerds too. (If you're not - what are you doing on my friends list? Scram, outsider! :)

So you should all go read this.

And maybe we'll start an interesting discussion on nerdiness, education, boredom, and society in the comments. Just because.

Current Mood: nerdynerdy
Current Music: Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie

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July 28th, 2004
01:39 pm
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Rougher-than-first draft
Strange occasion - I'm actually posting something I wrote. Not just something, but fanfic. (Horrors!) And I'm posting it because it's in rougher-than-first draft and I want to know what's wrong before I try to even take it to second, or write more.

HP-verse, time of the first book.

OCs ahead...Collapse )

2154 words, 95 paragraphs, 266 sentences. 2.7 sentences per paragraph, 8.1 words per sentence, grade level 4.6. (I love Word's summary tools.)

Wanted: criticism! Especially canon-checking (I can't find my book!) and Britishisms.

Is it worth taking further? Anything too blatantly Sue-ish? (How can I fix it?) How's the readability, subjectively? Etc, etc, etc.


Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: St. Robinson in His Cadillac Dream - Counting Crows

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July 12th, 2004
07:41 pm
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...and a memeCollapse )

Edit: Feel free to guess if you haven't already. I'll confirm correct ones.

Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: Shadowman - Afro-Celt Sound System

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July 6th, 2004
11:05 am
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Good things.
Someone on my friends list was depressed recently and asked to be reminded that good things in life still exist... And since I've been a little wondering myself, I think it's time to remind myself of all the wonderful, beautiful, touching things that are out there. It's a personal list of things that touch my heart and make me feel something so strongly I overflow.

Music. Magic. Sunrises and sunsets. Spring rain. Summer thunderstorms. The sea. Hawks in flight. Misty mountains. Snuggles. Flowers bedecked with dew. Stars. Cool grass. Crystals. Waterfalls. Sun-dappled forest paths. River-smooth stones. Hugs. The scent of a loved one. Dancing in the night. Singing like no one's listening. Clouds. Laughter. Snow. Photographs. Memories. "If dreams are like movies, then memories are films about ghosts." Drawing. Fresh bread. Warm chocolate-chip cookies. Candles. Movies. Books. Backrubs. Ice cream. Familiar voices. Stray. Swimming. The endless universe. Talking to a friend. Sand castles. Hiking. Holding hands. Tarot cards. Dragons. Kisses. Being told I'm beautiful. Love. Being loved. "There's not a word yet for old friends who've just met." Being sung to. Unexpected letters. Belonging to the thunder. Finding the right words. Jigsaw puzzles. Wings. Squirrels. Being held. Sharing sunrises. Remembering holidays. Just-because presents. Belonging. Compliments. Old familiar fuzzy things. Campfires. Just being with someone. Comfortable silences. Bookends. Paint under my fingers. Bulls-eyes. Hitting a target from 40 yards. The wind in my face. Sea spray. Rustling leaves. A warm embrace.


Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: I'm Going to Go Back There Someday - Gonzo

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June 7th, 2004
06:50 am
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Who am I?
This is an entry that's probably long overdue. I have a talent for introspection, but it's been a long time since I wrote any of that down. And it's about time to make a public statement of who and what I really am. So, below, I've tried to present myself, as simply, clearly, and honestly as I can. There will obviously be biases, and information that I just plain forgot - you're invited to comment to point these out, ask questions, etc. (Anonymous comments welcome; but please indicate who you are so I don't have to track down your IP.)

I've tried to create some structure, but it's going to be a little disjointed anyway.

Are you sure you want to know?Collapse )

If I missed anything important, or there's something else you'd like to know about me, please feel free to get in touch. Commenting is easiest, but my other information is in my user info. (If you email or IM, mention my LJ so I don't accidentally treat you like spam.)

Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: 4 CDs of Billy Joel and one of Steely Dan


April 18th, 2004
02:23 pm
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Yay! Finished a commission! Not the absolute bestest thing I could ever draw, but I'm quite happy with how it turned out. (Though it looks a lot better in person - the purple refuses to scan or photograph the right color, and some of the detail is invariably lost.)

I also did a Tarot reading that was prounounced useful and about as accurate as such things ever are. That also makes me happy. It was fun to do, and nice to know I could be of help.

Anyone I haven't asked questions on the 3-questions meme, here's your questions:
1. What's your favorite scent and who or what does it remind you of?
2. What one object is special to you (but not necessarily anyone else) and why?
3. What one song could you listen to on repeat for 12 hours straight? (And would you still like the song afterwards?)

Okay, now you can all ask me questions. Doesn't have to be three, though that's a nice number. I'll answer anything and everything, short of breaking promises or confidences, though I may send some answers by email/AIM if I don't want to broadcast them. Anonymous questions are welcome, though some may go unanswered.

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: A Thousand Miles - Whisper of the Heart AMV

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April 11th, 2004
04:12 pm
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Give me your money.. Mwahahaha...
*cough* Yeah. Umm... Moving on...

I'm a poor college student. However, I have something a lot of poor college students don't have - a smidgen of artistic talent. (According to other people, that is.)

Art informationCollapse )

And on a totally different topic, I'll do Tarot readings for anyone who asks. No charge yet, because I don't know how much interest there is. More informationCollapse )

Comment here, send an IM to Inuki42 (AIM), or email inuki42@hotmail.com if anything here interests you or you'd like more information. (If I left out something important, tell me that too!)

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March 6th, 2004
11:54 pm
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This will be the last time I address this issue publicly. It is my final statement on the matter. I will not speak of this again in this or any other public forum.

As such, it"s ridiculously long. Nearly 3,500 words.Collapse )

Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: The Ballad of the Foxhunter - Cherish the Ladies

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March 3rd, 2004
03:33 pm
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This duplicates the previous friends-locked entry of mine, and nearly duplicates a comment on another journal. This is here because I'm fairly sure that comment will be deleted or screened, and I feel that this should be a matter of public record. If you've already read the entry previous to this one, you can skip this.

Transcription of an entry by trevelyanl85a2 and my response.Collapse )

I recognize that my words were harsh, and could easily be interpreted as insulting. However, I stand behind them, and will not apologize for them. I said what I meant, and the strength of my language comes primarily from frustration. Trev has been harassing me for over 6 months. I have contacted Campus Safety, and they gave him a warning. Apparently that wasn't enough, though, as he continues to try to contact me, deliberately breaking the agreement he made with me through Campus Safety. I've had enough, and will not take any more of it.

Current Mood: enragedenraged
Current Music: Only a Plank Between One and Perdition - FF8

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February 23rd, 2004
08:44 pm
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Inuki's Guide to LJ Posting
A handy list of things YOU can do to make your journal more reader-friendly.Collapse )

Suggestions welcome. I'm sorta hoping to keep this revised and up-to-date, as LJ integrates new functionality and as I find more things that annoy me that a lot of people are doing. As usual, revisions will have a date in parentheses after them.

Current Mood: geekygeeky
Current Music: Death on the Snowfield - AmIEvil

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